What's the purpose of your life?

Most people study hard and work hard. True? Everyone is dying to complete their degree back in their Universities. After graduating they found that they are caught in a rat race. They just can't stop working 9-5 else they'll be in debt. Those who bought car, took loans, bought insurance, or any kinda thing that requires them to pay monthly installment would find themselves in big trouble if they stop working.

This may sound daunting but most people would gradually get used to this kind of lifestyle not knowing where they're heading. I personally feel whatever we do, we need to know the purpose and meaning. To me, "purpose" and "meaning" are both sacred words as without a purpose and meaningful life, what is life to u?

Confucius once said "choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life." Agree? This is what I believe firmly. If u love drawing and naturally you'll be spending a lot of time drawing. But you'll not complain. You won't be depressed. But you will be deeply engrossed with what you're doing- drawing as an artist. If you're an author, you can spend all your time writing your novel/book. Because it's meaningful to you and you enjoy doing it.

Somehow, it's sad to see how many gloomy faces when I'm taking train to work every morning. And yes, I might be one of them except that I don't really feel gloomy as I have a purpose in my mind when I'm heading to work. I used to drag myself out of the bed when I was working in a company doing things I don't enjoy doing. I won't say what I'm doing now is my passion/interest but it's something I'd like to learn.

I believe, if everyone is pursuing their passion, what they love to do, then their life is worth living just as what Socrates said - "The greatest tragedy in life is to spend your whole life fishing only to discover it’s not fish that you were after". So what is the "fish" you're looking for?

Dog exercising

I saw this on youtube just now. This is so cute!



As a result, I went on to check the details of this type of dog. And I found that it's called Border Collie. Oh boy, Imma gonna buy this dog next time!

Earth hour

Are you supporting earth hour now?! I've just realised that it's earth hour now. Yeah, I've already switched off the light while typing this post. It's so....difficult to type. Thank god the screen gives me a lil bit of light! I'm glad more people are aware of this and have shown their support to this act.

Happiness

When we were young, we study hard so that we could land a good job after graduating. After that most people work their ass off  from 9 to 5 work to buy a new car and a house. Soon, they look forward to getting married and have children. Then they are dying for their children to grow up so that they don't have to worry about them anymore. When that time comes they hope to retire soon. All of a sudden, they realised they have not lived their lives.
More often than not, we spend too much time looking forward to achieving our goals that we forgot to live in the moment. Enjoy every little detail in life. Even when we're having a simple meal, be thankful that we get to enjoy the meal. Enjoy the ride in your car while you drive to work. Enjoy the rain. Happiness is a choice. We can choose to enjoy or curse everything. And when we enjoy every single thing we do in life, we'll feel happy and fulfilled.

Reflection

While I was at home 2 days ago in bp, I was thinking how life has changed. Back when I was young, I could always feel the atmosphere of cny. Sitting on the marble chair while enjoying the back-home feeling right outside my house, I almost certainly anticipated that this is going to be an awful cny. Mom is no longer with us and nobody's home, the house is becoming more and more like those abandoned dilapidated houses we can always see by the road side.

A kind of indescribable sad feeling overwhelmed me, as if I were my mother herself, reminiscing her life. I could imagine how her life was when she was young up until the day she left this world. How lovely the memories she had had when she was a teenager, a young adult, then marriage, and slowly grow old till her twilight years.

I could feel as if I were her at the age of 60, how lonely and how sad life has become. All her siblings are not staying in Malaysia, and there are so few people in our neighbourhood. All her old friends were not here anymore and she doesn't know how to drive. How lonely she was.

As the scenes were playing in my mind, the wind blew and the rustling sound of the tree leaves making it even lonelier. All these made me feel how a human life is like, especially when we're coming to an end of our life journey. I can always imagine, but I never knew how it feels when are old. I'm sure not everyone will feel lonely when they're old. What I could feel was afterall, through the eyes of my mother.

Back to the real point I wanna make. While anticipating that this new year is gonna be awful, I realised that I'd already decided in my mind how this cny will be. We never know what will happen next, what if I die next year? Will I still make this an awful cny? How many more cny will I ever get to experience throughout my life?

More often than not, we delay the enjoyment that we should have by thinking "nvm, we'll enjoy during better times". That day, I've decided I will not expect an unhappy new year. I've decided to enjoy this coming new year. I guess this reflects the quote "our mind is a wonderful servant but a terrible master". When we think it will be a good year, we will do all sort of things to make it an enjoyable one, when we think it's gonna be lousy then it will be. This is true in every aspects of our life, be it family and friends, career or health.